Friday, June 11, 2010

My life lately

I'm really hating myself lately....why because it seems like I can't stick to anything....my whole diet thing I was going to do yea last 3 days then I binged. Seems like that's all Ive been doing lately and it sucks. Work is getting to me.....I don't want to do anything and it's not like I do anyways I have no friends. I find myself doing stuff by myself ALL the time. Like today, went to the mall by myself. My so called best friend isnt around anymore since she got a boyfriend. My sister was working and she even has a life.....


No clue how I became to having no friends. I hang out with a guy when I can but still we don't do anything just sit around and watch tv, movies or drink. It's sad but I even posted an ad online seeking friends but only got this guy and he wanted to do stuff....like no I can find someone to fool around with but I just want a friend.


I'm finding myself getting more depressed over time and I need to find something or somewhere to make friends...it didn't use to bother me but now I see people on facebook having a life and having so much fun that I want that...then I get to thinking no one wants to be my friend cuz I'm a fat cow. Like who really wants to be seen with a fatty right?


But YAY me, today and friday's from now on is my fasting day.....I will try my bestest to stick to this and it shouldn't be too bad. I've been doing good haven't eaten anything just been having tea, water, coffee, and made myself a lemonade. 


I really need to start exercising again....I did pretty good today but sadly did not go to the gym. I will Sunday tho. But today I did:

  • 100 crunches
  • a good 10 minute stretch
  • 50 squats
  • running in place for 5 minutes
  • and don't know what t's called but it's suppose to work out your back...You lay on your back and lift upwards
Oh my, I really need something to do.....oh why can't I have friends oh well back to watching more shows I suppose.....maybe go to bed early haha how lame am I going to bed at 10pm on a friday

Oh well, hopefully everything is better in blogger world
Ducki3 <3

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